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Name: Andrea
Location: Indianapolis, Indiana, United States
Birthday: 3/1/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: having fun. chillin wit da homies. haha. music. xanga. not gonna lie. shopping. having money. not working. laughing. stayin out late. sleeping. finding stuff to cure boredom. unsucessfully. going to playgrounds late at night. fun. oh boys too.
Expertise: walking. getting bad grades with minimal effort. losing at padiddle. sex. jk. READING. yea assholes. brushing my teeth. nd herre. being bored. more
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  sweetlildrea11
Member Since:
4/18/2004
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| sometimes i really just have to stop and wonder if realistically i am going to be able to do college. i have zero motivation, no goals, and no sense of obligation. like whatever most people have inside of them that says i know i don't want to do this but just do it, i dont have. i cannot force myself to do anything. like wtf is wrong with me, i would like to consider myself a moderately intelligent person but i am fucking fucking stupid. like dear god make good decisions bitch, but i cant. i was thinking the other day that maybe i am deliberately sabotaging myself maybe i am afraid to succeed and then i realized that that is the fucking stupidest thing i have ever heard of in my life. for example the entire reason i have even wrote this is because for the past ten hours i have been putting off writing a paper. it is now almost three o clock in the fucking morning and i have yet to start, i have yet to pick a topic, and i am not sure if i am capable of doing this. oh yea this is the second time i have taken this class as well. like normally if there was any feasible way i could just not do this paper i would be in bed right now i would have said fuck it. but in this case i cant do that, if i dont write this paper i will fail this class..again. so what is going to happen is i am going to sit here and probably not start anything til eight in the morning then i am going to throw together a shitty ass paper in probably half an hour. or maybe i just wont do it, no i have to. i hate myself. actually i wrote this in hopes that maybe i would be able to look at myself on paper and see how stupid i am and see an easy solution but it didnt work and now i am just pissed off at myself. uughhs waskjfdsiokjedsfijkfd. fuck.
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| i think i should be drunk more often.
i think i make better decisions when i am drunk.
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| i have not updated this thing in a hot minute.
which is fine.
Purdue is great. I quite prefer my life here to that of my life in indy.
perhaps it is just for the fact that i do not have to deal with my parents on a daily basis, well i'm shore that is a contributer but overall tis just better.
i quite enjoy living in an apartment, it is infinitely better than the dorms.
i love my roommates, well most of them one of them i could do without, and she could do with cleaning up after herself once in a while.
but for reals. shit is goods.
i have managed to start myself out in a hole academically at the beginning of this semester.
story of my g damn lifezors.
im counting on myself to decide to be responsible at some point in my life, i pretty much have to though i am not really doing anything too proactive to make this happen any sooner.
i have however made the first step in finding a job tonight though.
because if there is one thing that i need to do more than do my school shit it is get a fucking job.
my parents told me this summer that if i wanted to keep my car i would have to pay the rest of it off.
they paid half of it off so i see this as pretty much fair especially since they are still paying for my insurance so i pretty much am fine with that prospect.
my mother gave me a month to find a job once i got back to school or i would have to take my car back home.
three days ago was a month so yea i pretty much must do this now.
anyway i emailed a guy tonight about openings for caterers at our union.
it said no experience necessary and i have like three years experience so basically if they dont hire me they are idiots.
sooo yea. gotta make that money money, cause a sista needs sum shoes....and earrings...and shit.
ne who. thats aboot all i can think of at teh momentzors. other than the fact that getting drunk before ten o clock in the morning is one of my new favorite activities evar. mmhmmzz. totesorzies for teh seirszors. well. yup
byes.
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| i am currently at my last day of work.
this might be the happiest i have ever been. ever.
i am working extremely hard as you can see. im moving out/in in eight days.
i really cannot wait.
i need to be back at purdue.
i doubt i will come back home next summer.
i see no reason. anyway. this is all. oh and i have finally started reading book 7 hp.
and i wish there werent so many spoilers
being posted by everyone EVERYWHERE. assholes.
irregardless. i am excited to read it. goodbye. | | |
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